Dark Love

Thank You

2005-07-20T07:06:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,the ppl that we really need is around us all the time.It's the small little things that they do that make us forget them.Thanks for the msg. it did help de-stress me while i was doing my work. Why bother looking for the right one when u can be the right one urself?

2005-07-11T06:13:00.000-07:00

Y do we fall? onli to stand up and learn from our mistakes. i was chatting wit my fren todae and realised that even though we hv to face reality, we still hv to learn from it. 'te real things tht re stopping us frm gettg our goals, is our limiting beliefs, which included self doubt. and the words we use? whn we say try, we wont really give our best yeah? ' these was wat she said.it was like a wake-up sentence to me. n levels will be over in 2 months time. see how fast it is.its veri scary. but we still hv to face it wit confidence.it was gd to hear such things from ppl once in a while. sometimes we need a little boost to help us to be more hardworking.i want to do well in my exams and there is onli one way.to start studying and concentrate in class.stop slacking!! well.gtg now.study hard ppl. all the best in ur studied!!!

Congrats!!!

2005-07-05T05:06:00.000-07:00

a big congrats!!! to the ppl hu was chosen for the upcoming dinner.don kf spt panda jon_u ken ivan justin chris and jk. i hv to admit.abit sad that is was not meant for my whole batch.but if there are 10 ppl hu deserves this treat, its this ten ppl. 3 leaders were fantastic. ivan lead by example even though he dun advice alot.his playing is so power.ken gone thru hell alot man.dm.was a tough job. justin.hahaha. glosz favourite man to contact when got admin stuff. and justin has been tolerating my nonsense for so long.i mean.i make fun of him and all like so bad.but it was certainly fun.chris.haha.wat to say man. no doubt the best horn player in sec schs. he even playing in snyo main band sia.pro like mad. jk. haha. the man behind our chalets and stuff like that. and jk also corrects things that he feels are wrong. jon_u? sl of cornet,and he is a gd. as in in everything. guitar studies cornet, need to say more? jeremy wong kum fai. my pal.always insult me sia.basket. but ya.i mean.me? hu look will not insult.haha.jeremy 2 months after palying oboe.join SYNO!!! how pro can he get? and watever he wants, he works hard for it.don degan.muhaha.poor thing man. alone in the flute section after everyone bastard him. he is lame la. but hu is perfect ? nice guy to go out wit.and a overall 'mr nice guy' . spt. haha. the small man!!! so small yet dun act small. he is the guy behnd our second sax. without him. wah.sax section can go die man.he is like the backbone.panda. bass clarinet pro.glosz favourite bassist in all sec sch.glosz always say he veri emo.muhahaha.ten ppl worthy to look up too.my congrats to u all and enjoy ur dinner. oh. dun worry abt the rest of us. cuz after dinner...hehehehe...

happy!!!

2005-06-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

kk.here to post abt wat happened on my Bdae.woke up.'happy bdae' from my parents.my sister like gave me this bag.so thoughtful of her.went to sch.my batch wished me happy bdae too.it was a ordinary day.then went to justin house to collect fishes.they were my bdae present.i kinda like keeping pets. i missed my hamsters. they killed each other and slash each other throats. so fishes. kinda cool. guppies and a sucker fish. i so LOVE sucker fish. it look so cool. the shape of it.its so unique. btw. i hate to say this kenneth. but one guppy died. AHHH!!! but rest assured that the rest will survive under my care. thanks to the ppl hu wish me happy bdae. i was so surprised that melisa actually remembers my Bdae.and ppl hu msg me wishing me happy bdae.so sry. i lost my fone. and still have not get one yet. hiyah. heard that brandon bro selling his bass. $400. quite cheap lor. might considering buying.kk ppl. TrnBtwGrnds might hv another performance coming up. MIGHT. if it is confirmed. then i will post abt the details. heard taht we hv to dress like beggers. haha. some busker festival or something. kk. gtg now. bb...

2005-06-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

Love is like a mountain.Hard to climb,but once u reach the top,the view is beautiful. Fat ppl like me find it so hard to climb mountains.does that mean love is almost impossible? Yes. Ppl always tell me dun think like that.ya.if i were u,maybe i won't. but weird.y am i talking abt love man.it can come later or nvr also i dun really care.1 more week to sch.kinda missed sch.all my frens and all.nowdays like so boring.band camp this thurs.and oh. meilan birthday is on thurs. so pls wish her when that day comes.nothing else to talk abt.the boring life of louis..

Fark Off...

2005-06-17T16:26:00.000-07:00

farking pissed wit hu ever this umayo person is.even though he nvr tag at my blog or anything.he still went farking other ppl blog and say wat'i heard u r gay,u not scared aids ar?' its like wtf lor.i mean.seriously.u got no life ar? muz tag stupid things like that izzit? i dunno how old u are and i will nvr noe hu u r also but all i can say is that u r going to die soon.time passes by fast and go farking spent ur time doing something like helping ur mum or watever la.firstly.the ppl that u say r gay are so not gay lor.and pls.SPS ppl.oh btw.ppl reading this.this umayo tag onli at SPS ppl blog.so most probably from sps or maybe from other rival school.kk back to where i was.the ppl that u said were gay is like wow.of all ppl.helllooo.they had interests in girls? and wat the fark u noe abt us.and if u got farking balls,which obviously u dun hv,farking put ur name there la.y put umayo? veri cool name ar? i mean(louis sounds so much better) muhahaha.but ya.u say they gay,u scared u put ur name so the gays cannot noe hu u r? u scared that the gays whack u up? got balls anot? dun hv rite.farking gay.i feel sry to the ppl hu r reading this noe.seeing all this vulgarities and all.i feel sry for u noe.yes.we may not noe hu u r,but u think la.y hide like a farking coward? to avoid getting beat up? well.u will get beat up sooner or later.given ur stupid attitude and screwed brain...

Lost

2005-06-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

things going thru my head.gd things.bad things.so lost in te world that i live in.this days i pms alot sia.i like not my usual cheerful self.suddenly i am so angry wit everything.i feel bad for the ppl whom i talk to.i was like so impatient wit them.sometimes.i feel as if i am not needed in this world.its like i am created for nothing.i feel useless.nothing i can do.

One day I'll fly away.Leave all this to yesterday.What more could your love do for me?When will love be through with me?Why live life from dream to dream.And dreamt the day when dreaming end....

Stolen!

2005-05-24T05:45:00.000-07:00

ok.i am stupid. i lent this stranger my hp and he ran off with it. i feel so stupid.i thought that he really needed a phone to call someone. wat more. i am fat.so like cannot chase after him.my parents not that upset with me.they say cause i gd will and as long as i ok they happy already.i feel so bad losing my hp.really dumb.i feel like those ppl u see on tv.fat and stupid.and kindness does not pay.actually.we shld not expect anything out of kindness.but.i lent him and hiyah.just hope that guy get caught.nothing much i can do now.tomolo got soccer match.dunno wether got the mood anot.well.ppl.learn from this.nvr trust anyone.i was stupid enough to...

Sry

2005-05-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

sry ppl that i hv not been updating my blog.i am kinda surprised that ppl do read my blog.i mean.read abt a stupid boring boy's life? btw. glosz came up to me and like' i read ur blog last nite,quite interesting' haha.cool.results came back lo.failed 2 out of 6.not wat i really wanted.wat more.the passes are not that high.around 60.none went above 70 sia.ok.we hv fiesta.balloon hat and upcoming farewell concert.i also got rock band competition coming up.first prize $5000 and a contract with some stupid company.i really really really hope we win it.but.its like so impossible.if we can get consolation gd enough already.band nowdays quite fun though.noah ark.procession to peace.and more.sch is ok.life...is still the same to me though.btw.my birthday? happens to be on the first day of sch after the june holidays.wat a way to enjoy.june is going to be a long month for me.classes.band.rock band.soccer matches.well.hope u ppl do enjoy ur holidays.until then.bye..

wat a yr...

2005-05-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

never made it to top 3.no fiesta.no presentation nite.and band starting on friday the 13th.it just sums it all up rite? dun feel like talking abt it. i just feel that we let glosz down alot.congrats to TWE for making it to presentation nite.u ppl deserve it.u ppl want it more than us.having mixed feelings now.one side of me is asking me to cheer up.the other side is telling me that everything is going so wrong for me.Life is wat u make out of it.and i guess i hv to stick to it.if i really want something.i hv to work hard for it.

-*some say it's best to say how you feel...but sometimes things might have ended better if your feelings were left unspoken*-

2005-05-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

todae went to play soccer at st pats.saw so many ppl there.did not noe that there were two churches challenging each other to a soccer match.anyway.we played at the street soccer court against some ppl hu r also from the church.they were gd.but overall,i guess my seniors were better.Kf was there too.thanks.if not i will be the only 1 from my batch.tomolo labour day.so no sch.can study before the mid yr exams which starts on tue.here's a little poem that i saw.hope u all enjoy it.bye..

Timeless effort, timeless gain,What could I say to justify?With you, be my living diary,To you, I share my whole life.Nothing more can I say,You've been through the times I had,I promise I shall never leave you,Till the end of eternity. Our destinies bend, path crossed,Yet it shall merge as one for now,Till when? Ah, I don't know,Perhaps till the sun fades,Til then, let us ride the winds,Cherishing the moments of sunset. For you my dear,the one I care and love.

happy can...

2005-04-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

haha.feeling so happy and cheerful.dunno y also.maybe becuz just chat finished.long time never chat already sia.btw.sometimes.being fat and ugly and stupid is not that bad after all.ppl see u as a bubbly person.haha.dunno y i thinking that way also.i remember brisbane.ralph hultgren.famous composer.nice guy.came up to me and said thanks for tolerating his jokes. cause i was practically his 'jokes'.haha.but it was fun though.the next day he came to the band and like'where is mr tuba'that is where i get my nick from.haha.well.being FUS is not that bad after all.btw.FUS.fat ugly stupid.haha.its like u dun hv to worry abt anything at all.life goes on as it is.well.kinda getting late now.gtg.exams tomolo.bye.haha...

Separate ways...

2005-04-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

'lonelyyy...i'm mr lonelyyy...i hv nobodyyy....all on my ownnn....ooowhoooo...' haha..mr lonely...by akon...very nice song...been very busy for the past days...doing d n t project...its like so far from completion...i am really lagging...lately been hearing new songs...like broken wings and find the real played by alter bridge...recently also heard eletrico 'i want u'...btw...electrico is a local band...and their own composed sounds pretty gd...but it sounds a bit too singapore-like? i really hope that my band can one day come up with our own album...it will be real cool...but i am also scared that we will go separate ways after our sec sch...i dun want that to happen lor...i mean...we had such a fun time preparing ourselves for the temasek concert...and we often go jamming and all...that is like this bond between us...but it might be just all gone after our sec sch...its like orry...such a gd singer...can hardly find someone like him anywhere...his voice is so like those foreign rockers...jonathan...he is one of the best guitarist i ever seen...he always tries very hard and is really one of those few that i really look up to...matthias...haha...sry if i spell his name wrongly....he is the new member to our band...and its like we give him something to play...he will straight away learn on the spot...and he picks up really fast...shaun...damn gd drummer...can almost play any beat....for me...just some fat bassist hu always sleeps and never fails to amuse the rest...only had one gig so far...but it was a pretty successful one...i guess..well...all the best to the band on the future...u guys rock...

hell...

2005-04-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

todae was one of the worst training i had. we played a training match.training only.and the referee was a girl hu was around 18 yrs old? yah.she was ok.very calm and all.but todae is the day where i saw the bad side of footballers.every tackle every corner they will argue.and there was once they surrounded the ref.i must praise the ref for keeping calm.but the men were so aggressive.i mean.yes.competitive spirit.but they were shouting vulgar words and all.truely was players shld not do at all.they even wanted to whack the ref.and she is a girl onli.i hv to admit.i was one of them hu argued with the ref.well.cannot blame referees.u cannot expect them to see every single incident.football.not so beautiful game after all..

hell...

2005-04-16T23:07:00.000-07:00

Syf..

2005-04-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

snap! its all over.finally.gold with honours.so mani things going thru my head now.firstly.congrats to TWE for getting gold with honours.u all truely deserve it.btw.to some ppl.if u all think that sps and twe got gold becuz of luck,then u are so wrong.dun want to mention hu but i guess alot of ppl should noe hu by now.went to pizza hut with my batch and we were like posing all over the place.haha.time flies.really.now i am back here blogging.dun think i going sch tml.so tired.going to sleep now.btw.a very big thank you to the ppl hu came and supported us.bye..

2005-03-27T03:18:00.000-08:00

went for soccer training todae.just realised something during training.that if u hv the passion,u will continue playing till the match is over.todae split into two teams.then i got a very young team.like a few sec 1s. then i like the oldest teenager there.so must like lead the team by example.first half we were down by two goals.then the next half our team really tried very hard to come back.could feel the energy within the team.i felt like i got a role to play.in the end.we drew 4-4. one of the most thrilling match i ever played.now i noe y soccer is called 'The Beautiful Game'.well.if ppl can inject energy in to wat they are doing,then they will succeed in life.Syf is like a few more weeks away.yesterday went conference hall and hear the other bands played.i realised that Twe was so enthu abt their playing.they keep wanting to try and go as far as they can.thats the gd thing abt them.our band was like so nervous when it was our turn to perform.after hearing twe and sas,we were like 'ok,we must make it happen.' i dunno how we sound like but glosz was like smiling at us. and i guess that really make us pumped up. he mentioned FIT. and wat will be will be. haha. i guess all the sps ppl noe wat FIT is already.my section really need to improved more.after hearing the double bass players play,i wanted my section to sound like that too.double bass is so cool.so much nicer than a bass guitar.got sch tomorrow. got band. i really miss the conference hall. i hope we do go there again.gtg now.studying for mid yr exams. bye..

So late...

2005-03-22T03:13:00.000-08:00

well.tomolo got practice with twe.from 7 pm until 11pm.so late.then ken say want to watch show after that cuz like got sports meet the next day so most probably will not go.but the only show that is showing so late is swing girls.i want to watch.but dunno hu will go.it's like abt this jap band.really interesting.well.going to study now.bye bye..

2005-03-20T00:35:00.000-08:00

todae was not a very pleasant day.i just found out that something that will affect me for the rest of my life.sometimes i wonder.the ppl that i noe.they are all so nice and friendly ppl.and nothing is wrong with them.well.at least it seems to me.me? just 1 of those youth ppl that they always mention abt in the newspaper.i always thought that 1 day if i hv children,will i pass on this uncurable sickness to them? how will i ever forgive myself if it really happens.well.i guess by now u ppl shld noe wat i am talking abt.yes.i went to the doctor for health check up.and tomorrow got to go blood test.i dunno y i am putting this on my blog.but i feel like opening up.i just realised that i got high blood pressure todae.dunno whether real or not cuz only test one time.i just cannot believe it.inside of me.it really hurts.well.i guess that i am one of the ppl that is not that perfect after all...

Song...

2005-03-19T07:40:00.000-08:00

haha.taxi drivers.full of funny crap sia.like todae.this driver ask me wat was my surname.then he started making fun lor.like i use to it already.he really talk crap sia.well.band was alright todae.nothing much.sch starting soon.training tomolo.must sleep early.bye...

Tired...

2005-03-17T04:20:00.000-08:00

hi everyone.just came back from band camp on wed.first day was alright.although i never go out with my batch at nite.i was not feeling sleepy at all till the third day.slept at 5am at woke up at 5.30? so was very tired.and i think i was sleeping awake.like got this part in SR.i was playing but i was so tired that i did not noe it ended.so i was like playing extra notes.then when finished playing,glosz asked me y i played extra notes.i got shocked and realised i was so tired i was unaware of wat was happening.well.i guess thats wat i call sleeping awake...

Happy!!

2005-03-13T02:21:00.000-08:00

haha.well.yesterday was one fun day.like had band from morning to afternoon.then glosz came in the afternoon and he was angry when he heard that 7 ppl absent.but later he told us that there were still 48 of us waiting for him.so he decided to come.and the practice turned out to be quite gd.after band.my rock band had a gig at temasek.our debut.torn between grounds.and we were waiting so nervously and finally it came.the moment that we hv been waiting for.i was like standing so still.haha.so nervous and the lights so bright.haha.btw.thanks for coming for the concert.ppl like the twins,KF,kenneth,christopher,my class ppl,don,and twe ppl.i really am very happy that u all spent $10 to come and support us.thanks alot.then after the concert went to eat.at KFC.like got no more food there already.but no choice.still went to eat there lor.today was quite a gd day for me also.like just came back from match.morning had training.then afternoon played against Tourism Board.and we won 4-2.i scored 1.very happy.it is quite nice to play with adults and score one goal against them.then took taxi hm.and the taxi driver was like asking me if i noe louis khoo.haha.i got shocked.like hellooo.my name also louis.yah.then he say i so dark colour.like him like that.dunno whether compliment anot sia.like dark.but still so fat and ugly.so no use really.well.band camp tomorrow.my batch last.hope it is a gd one.or rather.it will be a gd one...

Come What May...

2005-03-06T04:59:00.000-08:00

just watched moulin rouge.so touching.love does many things to a person.jealousy is one of them.but when u are in love,nothing is impossible.but sometimes.things dun turn out wat u want it to be.sometimes i wonder.when u marry the one u love,y does it seems that the best man is the one u truely love? love is confusing.but it is the greatest thing in the world that u can ever received.to love and to be loved...

so weak...

2005-03-05T05:56:00.000-08:00

woke up today feeling so weak.got fever.but still decided to go for band anyway.then halfway went back.feeling so hot inside my body.even in air con room.never go for my rehearsal at temasek.i hope they sounded gd.very tired now.bye..

results...

2005-03-01T13:53:00.000-08:00

1st of all.congrats to jing qin,nathan,tommy and peters for getting sych gd result for their o levels.after hearing my direct seniors got so high,i suddenly feel that the pressure is on.spsmb normal students often do so well for o's.i guess i hv to keep up the tradiition too sia.common test results are out.so far i failed 2 passed 4.not bad already.last yr.i failed alomst everything except humanities.hmmm.it is a gd start to the yr.n level.like so near.then next yr like very boring.my batch all leave.then left me,chris,jeremy,nicholas,haikal,huang and jing kai.so little.still wondering whether should i continue in band next yr.maybe i should just concentrate on my o's.hiyah.tough decision.ok.off to sch now.bye..

alright...

2005-02-27T05:25:00.000-08:00

hmmm.things are alright now guys.thanks.haha.forgive and forget.we talk it over and yah.i guess things are much better now.hey.never mind if u cannot come.as long as i noe i got ur support can already.todae got soccer match.then it was drizzling.so cooling.btw.i just heard news from some girl from temasek.our band? yah.u see.the marks are upon 50.the best internal band got 38.not bad already.our band? haha.48!!!! honestly.i do not think that my band is that gd.but after hearing the result.i realised that if we keep on practicing.maybe we can reach our goal.to be able to create our own album.haha.cool.well.tomorrow last day of common test.like finally.and just went for my first piano class yesterday.i lag behind ny sis sia.very pai seh.must catch up.well.ppl.once again.12th of march.Torn Between Ground will be making their debut.pls come and support us.bye..

Boring days...

2005-02-24T20:22:00.000-08:00

well...common test week again.its like i failed 2 subject so far.and my teacher was like telling the class.only two boys got a in PSLE for maths. and he looked at me.helloooo.like PSLE so long ago.it does not really matter.look where i am now.i really am stupid.like wasted one more yr.ah...dun feel like talking abt it.well.Music Is It.concert coming up.our very first gig.very excited.todae we(orry and me) were like talking abt wat to wear.we decided to go gothic.haha.dunno y but suddenly so interested in gothic.so this is how i will look like.a fat and ugly boy with black nails.blacks rings under eye.purple hair.black shirt.black jeans if i can afford it.chains.yah.basically like that.haha.weird.and christopher was like saying that u cannot smile.must look angry everywhere u go.haha.i dun think i can do that lor.like its a concert.and ppl dancing.i heard.so must also smile abit la.haha.maybe i will go up to the principal and say hi.see his or her reaction.weird thoughts coming out of me now.songs we playing.our composed song.accidentally in love.wherever u will go.hope it does not sound bad on that nite.it's such a big nite.oh yah.then it will be a bit boring after our performance.like i will be alone.orry with nat.huang with sarah.bao with dunno hu.kenneth with u noe hu.jing kai with everyone noes hu.christopher with only he himself noes hu.and lonely luis watching eveyone dancing and having fun.y am i thinking like that? haha.very boring nowdays.like i hv been going sch and seeing the same teachers for more that 3 yrs.boring!!! well.i think i going to shop for my stuff after the tests.btw.i was thinking of piercing my ear.but creating a hole in my body does not really sound nice.haha.hiyah.going to study now.oh.there is like a piano in my house now.and here is something shocking.haha.i am going for piano lessons! every sat nite.with my sis hu is currently learning too.its quite fun.like playing melody and harmony together.pretty cool.wah.like so long sia i post todae.hope u all can read until the end.haha.got test tomolo.so bye...

Wat e Hell...

2005-02-21T23:57:00.000-08:00

i am so farking pissed off now.i'm sry i hv to use this word but there is nothing that can describe my anger.i took taxi with my friend hm.then we were talking abt my friend gf.then the taxi driver said'do u mind if i say sumthing?'.then we listened to him.he told us we were too young to hv gf.so i thought he was a sensible man.then when my friend left.the taxi driver told me said his wife was 12 younger than him.ok.then he started to really disgust me.he told me say he was a manager.then he had this pretty girl going for a interview.but she was 15.so he could not hv sex with her.wat the fark!!! and he told me say on her 16th birthday,she invited him over and had sex.then he told me say they had sex a few times before breaking up..here is the worst part.he has a wife rite.but he has also two outside sex partners.wat the fark sia.he said he lied to his wife abt working 10 hrs a day.wats wrong with him!!! and he had the cheek to tell me say that he was steralized or something like that.meaning he cannot produce active sperms.fark the taxi driver.i really hate this type of ppl hu cheats on their wives.i mean.where is the true love.ia m really pissed off with him now.y must there be this kind of ppl living in the world? i really pity his wife and his children.i promised.that till the day i died.if i ever cheated on my wife.i will kill myself...

wow...

2005-02-18T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey...haha.i met aaron aziz.he like living next to my block only.he was carrying a baby then i saw him.haha.then he smiled at me.and i just walked off.i did not believe it was him.btw.todae like so bad mood.dunno why.this few days very angry over certain things.well.i do hope things get better.tomorrow got band.glosz coming.i think.so early somemore.gtg now.sleep early.bye...

Lost...

2005-02-17T05:18:00.000-08:00

these few days hv been quite stressful for me.dunno y i am bothered by so many things.but also dunno y i dun seem to be bothered.seem only.deep inside.many things disturbed me .heard alot of things that i dun want to hear.things that disturbed me.i wished i could help someone but something tells me that they will not listen.maybe i am not that close to them or something.or maybe i heard rumours only.hu noes if they r true or not.studies.although i dun sleep as much as last yr.work seems to be getting tougher.i really hope i can score high for my coming tests.band.just heard that i will be section leader next yr.like wow.sec 5 already still section leader.got o levels.dunno wats with glosz.band practices are getting better.we are getting the sound we used to hv in 2003.i hope we can get a gold in syf.then it will be our eighth.but first we hv to work towards it.we still hv to practice alot harder.well.gtg now.still got DnT to do.like alot sia.haha.hope i can do finished.bye bye...

backstabber...

2005-02-15T02:34:00.000-08:00

i hate u.i really do.i hate ppl talk behind my back.i thought u were my friend.how could u.i really despise u now.yes.u.i am talking abt u.if u dun think it is u.well.it is u.backstabber! i dun want anything to do with u again.it does not pay to be nice.really.wats the use of being nice to u and then u talk abt me behind my back.i really am pissed off now.just thinking of this.i hate u.i really do!!!

wat a day...

2005-02-14T04:49:00.000-08:00

V-day.todae in class was like talking abt it with my friends.haha.like so many of us cannot be bother wth v-day.in temasek.like everyone receives a gift.our sch? haha.if someone from our sch gives another guy a gift.that guy is officially a gay in our sch.then haha.my friend was like buying a rose for his gf.so i was wondering.everytime flower.y not a cautus? cautus survives in the dessert alone.independant.and does not die easily.haha.undying love.agree? so i got this small little cautus with red colour things on it.but like never give anyone.haha.maybe one day.when i found 'the one'.sometimes things are not meant to be.like u like this person but that does not mean he or she will like u.so just let nature take it's own course.another thing.haha.i was in a cab with this person.and she like say she very ugly even though she NOES she is not.then i was wondering.u ppl often say u all very ugly.then me le? i am like so much worse.fat ugly useless stupid.hiyah.i just hate myself.the way i look and all.well.life is wat u make out of it.so must try to lose weight.alot.gtg now.wat a boring valentine day.actually not that bad though.glosz was quite pleased with our music.tomorrow got performance.war memorial.in the morning.can skip sch.haha.then played soccer after band.our batch won can.haha.our batch just rocks la.ok.must wake up early still.bye...

V-day...

2005-02-13T04:01:00.000-08:00

V-day is tomorrow.just want to wish u all a happy valentine's day.well.today had team selections.i just hope i do get in the team.it will be great to represent liverpool fc.exams coming already.so fast.time really flies.yesterday went glosz house after the rehearsal at temasek.btw.our band got in.so happy.i heard that kenneth got pressure from our seniors and got drunk? haha.then he sort of knocked out at glosz house.so funny.glosz com so cool.the sound system and all.tomorrow got sch.it's like the weekend passed by so fast.currently listening to accidentally in love.wat a nice song.ok.gtg now.practicing my bass for the upcoming concert in temasek on the 12th of march.do come and watch.bye..

happy!

2005-02-10T13:46:00.000-08:00

haha.went twins house yesterday.then went to gamble with adults and all.is elder brother friends.haha.won over $40.so happy can.like from only $10 to $42.wonder wat i can do with the money.holidays over already.sch starting in a while.and i hv not done my DnT.so dead.i hope i dun get scolding.got band todae too.i hope things really improved.oh.watched temasek band yesterday.they sound so nice.like they really improved alot lor.well.going to sch now.bye bye...

happy new year!

2005-02-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

watched constatine yesterday.very nice show.ppl.u should really go watch the movie.well.happy new year everyone.hope u enjoy ur holidays.

audition!

2005-02-06T01:58:00.000-08:00

yes!!!the audition is finally over.and now girls are going crazy over our lead singer.haha.it is like every girl in the room screamed after we played finished.hmmm.i dunno if there was any boy screaming...anyway.my foot hurts.like had training todae.then this guy jumped and his foot landed on my foot.imagine 11 or 16 studs landing on ur foot.can like hardly walk.went for sas pop.hv to admit the sounded gd.after that went to eat.i think i made some ppl angry by delaying them.sry.i really did not noe that u all were waiting.really sry.well.gtg now.bye...

Wats wrong with this world...

2005-02-04T06:02:00.000-08:00

wats with all this hacking of head and all.y r u killers so sick.and for stupid reason.u kill innocent ppl.becuz someone is more popular than u and becuz ur daughter is a gd-for-nothing.that gives u no reason to take lives of others.only god decides.i really pity these victims.they dun deserve this.ok.enough.i am getting more upset thinking of this.yesterday nite like got fire at my block.then must like wake up around 3.30 and leave the block.must wait like so long then can go back.but luckily no one was hurt.audition is tomorrow.so nervous.i really hope we do get in.i want to.never been so nervous in my life.well.wish me luck tomolo.bye...

working again...

2005-02-02T02:49:00.000-08:00

yes.my internet finally working again.ok ppl.today is hidz birthday.pls wish her.like promoting birthdays.btw.POP finished.finally.but i heard some rather bad comments abt the POP.well.must be the old man.ah.saturday audition.for our band.3 out of 18 bands.i hope our band do get thru.well.tomolo got jamming session.hope we really sound gd on that day.alot of ppl are like supporting us.i dun want to let them down.life is the same as usual.exams coming and must study.well.hu ever said that life was easy.gtg now.study.hiyah.bye...

cut...

2005-01-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

haha.playing soccer.yah.then ball went straight for my face.and now i got a cut across my forehead.my frens say look very cool.haha.got cut cool ar.u go cut urself la.anyway.POP tomolo.the big day for my juniors hv come.i hope to see u ppl there.bye...

Yes!

2005-01-26T06:18:00.000-08:00

haha.todae practice was quite ok.it actually turned out quite well.must be cuz glosz was there to take us.haha.we normally play well only when he around.i guess he is important.he was quite satisfied with the practice.and i heard that sat got practices.got full band with glosz.at least now we got more full band with him.i really hope that will boost up the confidence of the members.ok.POP on fri.ppl.pls come.i hope to see u there.bye...

Stressed!!!

2005-01-25T06:09:00.000-08:00

so stressed.n level design 'n' tech so difficult.must think of a problem involving food and drinks.and must create a small model to create something.and if i can think of something,it is probably invented by someone already.y this yr theme so difficult.last yr was entertainment.so easy.just create something fun.ppl.i need help.if u can think of some problem.just tell me can.i really need help.so stressed.and yah.the model must be built with IT.technology.wow.thats wat i just needed.something with IT.anyway.fri is POP.very excited for my juniors.i hope alot of ppl will turn up and cheer for them.got headache now.thinking of problems.gtg.no time to waste.bye...

Cheerful...

2005-01-24T05:54:00.000-08:00

haha...did alot of catching with my 'sis' todae...its been a long time since i last talk to her...well...todae was ok...i learnt alot...meaningful things...well...nothing much...so...yah...thats abt it...haha...bye... Ppl hv always been looking for faith around and hv look up to the stars hoping for something.But only by looking through urself will u find the answer.

Not very happy...

2005-01-23T05:40:00.000-08:00

well.liverpool lost.nothing to say.this morning want to play soccer at dunman sec sch with liverpool fans.then everyone was like saying the manager lousy and all.i sort of agreed.at the same time disagree.he just became the coach last yr.u cannot expect miracles.anyway.play till like 1.so tiring.like long time never exercise.then went hm and slept for a while.then like 4 plus.christopher called.and talk so much lame shit.lame but funny at the same time.at nite do hw and watch disney the kid.quite a nice show.very meaningful.haha.nothing exciting abt my life.this yr n levels.wan to go out also cannot.must think of future.well.tomolo got band and i heard that glosz dun want to come for my junior passing out parade.he thinks that he can just come and go.sometimes i wonder y am i still in band.well.4 yrs already.ok.tomolo got sch.timetable just changed again.i was reading this brain teaser.yah. hmmm. if mary's father had 5 daughters,and they are nini,nana,nene,nina,wat is his fifth daughter name? haha.how stupid of me not to noe.gtg now.bye...

Confused...

2005-01-22T05:40:00.000-08:00

i am so confused.i was talking to my friend and he was asking me this question.and the answer that i told him was something that i'm also not sure abt.honestly.ppl reading this.u like this person.becuz? his looks or his personality? i mean.my father asked me this before.and when i told him personality,i got a shocked answer.he said'if u see this very fat girl and i mean very fat,but she is a very nice and caring person,would u go after her?" from that day onwards,i felt very confused.if i say yes to the question,i would be lying to myself.i mean.i dunno.99% tells me yes,but that very 1%...i really dunno.does looks matter? i dunno.i'm like the example that my father used.fat.ugly.stupid.i dun judge ppl by their looks.but.if u dun noe this person.and u find him disgusting and all.would u even want to noe him? it is a very disturbing question.but i believe that true love can make a couple come together despite their differences.well.enough of the question.going to sleep now.tomolo got soccer match.i hope i am fit.just recovered.btw.i do hope liverppol can win tonight.bye...

how long more?

2005-01-20T04:19:00.000-08:00

ok...3 days never go school.and today got drill test and i miss it.y am i so unlucky.i am only a lance corporal.and if i miss drill test,i can only go to corporal.went to the doctor yesterday.3 day mc.wanted to go sch today but if u listen to my voice.wah.it is tragic.ask christopher.i sound like a frog sia.anyway.liverpool out of FA cup.wat the hell sia.that is so stupid.given the squad they hv.i hope i can get well by the 28th of jan.my junior's passing out parade.ppl.must go noe.tomolo hari raya.i want to go out but at the same time hate the way i sound now.wat a unlucky start to the new year.well.i wish things get better along the way...

Sick...

2005-01-18T01:46:00.000-08:00

never go school todae.feeling so sick.like got headache and fever at te same time.very very weak now.well.tomolo got band.dunno if i am even going school.going to sleep now.so weak....

Singapore!

2005-01-16T06:13:00.000-08:00

haha.singapore.the champions of the tiger cup.once again.many doubt them to be contenders for the title.but it just shows that if there is a will,there is a will.wat a nite for singaporeans.this morning went to liverpool fc club to play soccer.then got match in the afternoon against ocbc bank.draw 3-3.liverpool fans still feeling the effect of the loss.so tired now.tomolo got school.i was thinking too myself.almost 3 weeks just passed.time really flies.n level coming.so stressed.and i still dun noe my chemistry work.well.going to sleep now.nite.

Stupid mistake...

2005-01-15T06:28:00.000-08:00

yes yes...Man U beat liverpool.but it would not hv been that way if not for dudek.wat a stupid mistake.feeling very angry yet sad at the same time.well.today went to play bball with jing kai and another guy.we were like challenging this trio.so pro sia.they remind me of the freestyle ballers.we were like beaten by them.even got fooled by their tricks.haha.but it was a gd experience.well.going to sleep now.still feeling the effect of the defeat.dudek will be featured on the front cover for his mistake.i hope he learnt his lesson.gtg.bye...

Band...

2005-01-14T06:01:00.000-08:00

what a day.so many things went wrong.things dun seem like wat it is used to be last time.POP coming up already.i hope ppl reading this can go for the passing out parade for my juniors.well.school went alright today.just that form teacher get pissed of becuz we never decorate the classroom.but the worst thing that happem today was that i left my folder in the taxi.my n levels work are inside.i called the company but they said the driver did not find anything.guess it is just my luck.or maybe becuz it is retribution.like last yr.i found the latest game boy advance in the taxi.i bought it to a shop and sold it for $125.maybe it is a way of teaching me not to be greedy.i learnt my lesson.never take things that do not belong to u.hiyah.wat a way to learn it too.well.gtg now.got tuition in the morning.bye.

Hiyah....

2005-01-13T05:53:00.000-08:00

new blogskin again.old one something wrong.still like the old one but wat to do.anyway.today was a really long day in sch.i was like waiting for the bell to ring.but time flies.here i am blogging now.todae just receive N'levels DnT project.got 8 months to finish.hope can do it in time.the theme is so weird.like food and drinks.cannot think of anything at the moment.well.gtg do my hw now.bye.

To ansley:hey.thanks.really.for helping me do my blog.this blog would not hv been made possible without u.thanks.

Finally....

2005-01-12T04:01:00.000-08:00

a very big thank u to miss toh hu helped me do my blog.and to christopher for trying to help me.haha.wah.finally sia.waited like so long.well.today was not a very fun day.firstly,i had tuition on the day when i am supposed to go for full band.and like it was so last min.i only knew abt band 2 days ago? glosz must be very angry.so little ppl turned up.tuition was so boring.wat more,i am a normal academic student.so like learn so slowly.i really regretted dropping to normal.but this yr is different.currently in 4n2.and christopher in my class.y u so lame ar christopher?i starting to be like u already.anyway.gtg do my hw now.got alot sia.bye...

2005-01-12T02:03:00.000-08:00

testing testing. wahaha. i did it! u beta thank me. -anz